Bottom of the Barrel

Well now, isn’t this interesting. I just noticed that this blog has a ranking in technorati. Currently its ranked 1,052,855, out of how many I do not know, but how about that? Out of how many blogs currently pinging Technorati, I don’t know, but that number has got to be scraping the bottom of the blog barrel.

Oh well. Instead of lementing this, I’m just going to own it. So, with pride, I will post the number clear for all (2 of you who read this):

1 , 0 5 2 , 8 5 5

I pwn the bottom of the barrel!

This project has always been like this. This has been a scrappy project from the beginning. Its almost comforting to see that hasn’t changed much.

Oh well. Such is the way of things. That’s been the story, an almost washed up has-been.

Of course the ranking leads me to question myself and ask the usual questions, like why bother keep doing this, and not just the blog, but the entire project itself. No one is actually using it - what kind of purpose is it serving? Why do I bother to put all of the work I do into something that goes unnoticed and provides no value? I sometimes feel completely ridiculous, like I’m playing some kind of role, that I’m supporting some kind of facade. I mean, I look around and I just feel like a fake, trying to collect a few scraps that fall from the internet dinner table in the hopes of being noticed by the cool kids.

Its not going to happen. Oh sure I’ll get excited about some of the new things, but the only reason I get excited is that it gives me something to do, something to produce. I know full well that the ego-satisifying goal of being noticed for a job-well-done or for providing some value or service just will not happen. I’m not smart enough, unique enough, clever enough to have what ever it is to achieve those laughable objectives.

So, here this project sits. At the bottom of the barrel. 1,052,855. Another forgetable waste of bandwidth drowning in a sea of forgetable wastes of bandwidth.

I’m not going to let this stop me though. No one may notice, and no one may actually get any value from this project, but I still do. I am still challenged. I still get excited over the prospect of building things and making them work. Does it matter that no one will use them? Perhaps not.

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